Saturday, December 18, 2010

Ivan's Rescue

Event: 18 December 2010; Updated: 21 July 2011

On the night of December 17-18, 2010, I had a series of dreams, which followed my struggle to respond to LADDOF director Joseph Dillard's question about how I'd imagine a reverse divorce of the split between science and religion in Los Alamos.

I didn't get to bed before 3 a.m., but awoke at 0500 from the first dream where
 I'm alone driving a car in a tight cul-de-sac with other cars parked in it, so that it becomes so tight that I can't make the squeeze and the car's front rises up and is about to fall on one or more of those obstructing parked cars. I don't know what is going to happen next and begin weeping as I come awake.
                        CREEI score: +?+++-//--?/++?  (Anticipatory, traumatic)

An hour later I awake to the sound of a dream telephone--"a wakeup call"! 

                        CREEI score: +----?//++?/++?  (Anticipatory)

A half hour later
 I become aware that Ivan has come to give me support. He holds me around my waist as we go walking briskly up and down narrow passages. He then mentions a dream of mine from years ago. It is unclear which one it is, but if other family members had this dream then it is all the more important. 
The scene changes and I am alone, but aware that Ivan is now inside a nearby house with other young people enjoying their fellowship. Although now safe and out of trouble, I feel vulnerable and unsure of myself.
                        CREEI score: +?+?++//++?/+++  (Motivational)

Fifteen minutes after that I awoke from a dream
of a young woman who has been sent to comfort me. I do not know her name.
                        CREEI score: +?+-+?//+++/+++  (Anticipatory)